i've been TRYING to be good. i mean REALLY trying. i sweat hear little voices calling me from the kitchen, "caaaaarlaaaaa... CAAAaaaarlllllaaaa.... enjoy me! eat me! now!"
sounds sooo naughty :) and it kind of is! the moment the chocolate touched my tongue it was a slightly orgasmic sensation... mmmmmmmm.... oh, sorry...
so its been a bit rough the last phew days. i have cupcakes in the house WITH chocolate frosting. WHAT? oh yes... chocolate frosting.
so... we'll try this again. a new week :)
Saturday, March 26, 2011
Thursday, March 17, 2011
ahhhhh warm weather!!!
yes, i've been m.i.a. for a few days.
this morning i read the weather was going to amazing. regardless of the weather, i woke in a GREAT mood! as the morning progressed, the air seemed charged... alive! and i was feeling charged and ALIVE! so i packed up the kids and took a walk to the park.
aaaaaaaaaaaaah!!!!!!!!!!!!! we played in the sun. i took pictures and i took a nice healthy dose of vitamine d!
the walk to the park was... well i had a new spring in my step. vigor. passion. i took deep breaths. cleansing breaths.
after a great couple of hours at the park, we came home for lunch. i had a chicken sandwich on whole wheat bread. a slice of chedda cheese (cuz chedda makes it betta) and spicy mustard. i did have a serving of chips (who can hae a sandwich without chips!) and a yogard. deeeeelicious!
i'm doing a C25K with james. its with the my-fit-mommy group. we start in april. it's a family thing. we are bringing the boys. i'm excited about it! fresh are, time with my boys (all 3!), and excercize. i'm also doing bikram yoga with a couple of friends (scary!!!). and... i've got pole dancing classes to look forward to!
charged, people CHARGED!!!
this morning i read the weather was going to amazing. regardless of the weather, i woke in a GREAT mood! as the morning progressed, the air seemed charged... alive! and i was feeling charged and ALIVE! so i packed up the kids and took a walk to the park.
aaaaaaaaaaaaah!!!!!!!!!!!!! we played in the sun. i took pictures and i took a nice healthy dose of vitamine d!
the walk to the park was... well i had a new spring in my step. vigor. passion. i took deep breaths. cleansing breaths.
after a great couple of hours at the park, we came home for lunch. i had a chicken sandwich on whole wheat bread. a slice of chedda cheese (cuz chedda makes it betta) and spicy mustard. i did have a serving of chips (who can hae a sandwich without chips!) and a yogard. deeeeelicious!
i'm doing a C25K with james. its with the my-fit-mommy group. we start in april. it's a family thing. we are bringing the boys. i'm excited about it! fresh are, time with my boys (all 3!), and excercize. i'm also doing bikram yoga with a couple of friends (scary!!!). and... i've got pole dancing classes to look forward to!
charged, people CHARGED!!!
Monday, March 14, 2011
throwing in the towel
Has it been 12 hours since i began my blogging journey? barely! so this morning, my intention was to have oatmeal for breakfast. thanks to the time change we have been off all day! anywho... i needed to be somewhere for 9:30. at 9 caleb was just getting his cereal... chocolate cheerios. oh sweet sweet DEEEEEEEEElicious chocolateeeee cheerios. so thats what i had for breakfast. and quite frankly the side info for weight watchers is better than kashi which is 5 points! ok ok... kashi does have all the good stuff like fiber and natural sugars... bla bla bla. and the better choice should have CLEARLY been the oatmeal.
it really pays to prep the day before. yeah. great. it also pays to be on top of the laundry, have it folded and put away. it also pays to have the kitchen clean and have the dishes in the dishwasher. oh and it pays to... so you get my point... i'm struggling to do the basic things in my home for my FAMILY! how in the heck am i supposed to muster up the organization to prep my breakfast, snacks and lunches so i lose weight?
lunch. i made caleb Knorr Pasta Sides Cheddar and Broccoli. he loves that stuff. and well, i can't get that kid to eat a veggie, so if he eats brocolli that way... so be it. anyway... i just wanted a spoonful because i was STARVING and i was contimplaiting eating caleb (he looked so darn delicious covered in cheddar and broccoli!). so just a spoonful turned into a serving and a half. i'm literally standing over the stove eating this stuff with the MIXING SPOON! really? REALLY??
it's really hard not to get discouraged. it's hard not to become depressed when you stumble. every stumble i throw the towel in. and the i get up and feel the ripple effect. it kind of radiates from my ass to my elbows. and while i should be inspired and charged to get up and not give in and keep moving and you can do this and that dam YEA RA-RA, all it does is bums me out.
:(
i got another meal coming. chicken soup. we'll see how that goes...
i promise you. i WILL got over this pity party for 1.
it really pays to prep the day before. yeah. great. it also pays to be on top of the laundry, have it folded and put away. it also pays to have the kitchen clean and have the dishes in the dishwasher. oh and it pays to... so you get my point... i'm struggling to do the basic things in my home for my FAMILY! how in the heck am i supposed to muster up the organization to prep my breakfast, snacks and lunches so i lose weight?
lunch. i made caleb Knorr Pasta Sides Cheddar and Broccoli. he loves that stuff. and well, i can't get that kid to eat a veggie, so if he eats brocolli that way... so be it. anyway... i just wanted a spoonful because i was STARVING and i was contimplaiting eating caleb (he looked so darn delicious covered in cheddar and broccoli!). so just a spoonful turned into a serving and a half. i'm literally standing over the stove eating this stuff with the MIXING SPOON! really? REALLY??
it's really hard not to get discouraged. it's hard not to become depressed when you stumble. every stumble i throw the towel in. and the i get up and feel the ripple effect. it kind of radiates from my ass to my elbows. and while i should be inspired and charged to get up and not give in and keep moving and you can do this and that dam YEA RA-RA, all it does is bums me out.
:(
i got another meal coming. chicken soup. we'll see how that goes...
i promise you. i WILL got over this pity party for 1.
Sunday, March 13, 2011
FAIL
sooooo.... it hasn't even been, well, 2 hours and i've already fallen off the wagon.
the scene kind of reminded me of cookie monster. you know, when he says, "COOKIE!!!!" and then there is a flurry of cookies being devoured. the scene in my kitchen was just like that... just a little less blue. ugh.
so, while in the mist of eating my third thin mint, i thought about this blog and thought about how i should put the cookies back. my response to that was muffled by the sound of me chugging milk.
fabulous. and yes, i ate the rest of the cookies on my napkin.
the sun will come out... tomorrow... and it will not be eclipsed by my feeding frenzy.
the scene kind of reminded me of cookie monster. you know, when he says, "COOKIE!!!!" and then there is a flurry of cookies being devoured. the scene in my kitchen was just like that... just a little less blue. ugh.
so, while in the mist of eating my third thin mint, i thought about this blog and thought about how i should put the cookies back. my response to that was muffled by the sound of me chugging milk.
fabulous. and yes, i ate the rest of the cookies on my napkin.
the sun will come out... tomorrow... and it will not be eclipsed by my feeding frenzy.
The Sad Story
ok. it's really not so sad. it is what it is. and what is it? the elephant in my room - my weight.
i wake every morning with the thought, "today you will follow your weight watchers. you will go to the gym tonight. TODAY IS THE DAY!!!"
i suppose i should also tell you that this rally usually occurs around 3am (the time which my 4 month old decided to get up for a snack *yaaaaawn*). so by the time i fall back asleep and get up again 2 hours later by my two and a half year old, i've completely forgotten about the "YEA-RA-RA!" i had.
i thought i would write this blog, maybe help keep me focused... rallied!
i wake every morning with the thought, "today you will follow your weight watchers. you will go to the gym tonight. TODAY IS THE DAY!!!"
i suppose i should also tell you that this rally usually occurs around 3am (the time which my 4 month old decided to get up for a snack *yaaaaawn*). so by the time i fall back asleep and get up again 2 hours later by my two and a half year old, i've completely forgotten about the "YEA-RA-RA!" i had.
i thought i would write this blog, maybe help keep me focused... rallied!
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