i cannot believe that i'm taking the few minutes i have to write this down! i mean, i have meant to write, but i totally forget and so weeks have gone by and... well, excuses excuses.
just a bit of information of what i have gone through/going through. when i was a teenager i was diagnosed with ADD. i live in total chaos every minute of my day. part of it is just being a mom, but the major part is the inability to clear my mind and really focus. get things in order. priorities. when i worked all the feedback i received was i need to better priorities, multitask, etc. but the funny thing is that i was super focused... on all the wrong things. but i was able to just muddle by!
then i had children. with caleb i worked. and it was hard. i was always last minute. but again, able to muddle by. then simon was born. and i just couldn't fake it anymore. i just get it together. and the more i tried to focus the more things spiraled out of control. my home was a mess. my life was a mess. my mind was a mess. it was exhausting. and i constantly felt like a failure. failure at work. failure as a wife. failure as a mom. there had to be more in my life!
how does this tie into my diet? one of the things that we (add/adhd folks) struggle with is being hyper focused. everything falls apart around us while we being mega focused on something. everyday i had a plan to eat well and exercise, and be healthy. 2 hours later i had completely forgotten! oi. talk about frustrating!
no with the help of medication and therapy, i have great tools to help be balance my head! oh what a feeling! james and i have taken small steps to change how we are living. more fresh fruits and vegetables. exercise. positive thoughts. i am feeling great about it!
so far i am UNDER my pre-pregnancy weight! i am trying the couch to 5k, and really enjoying it!
it's only been a week and a half, so we'll see how it progresses! success!!!
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
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